4 posts tagged “crap”

Fresh Starts,

Thanks to the calender, they happen every year.
Just set your watch to January.
our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year, bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions, put your past behind you, and start over.
A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.

Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins?
It's not a day on a calender, not a birthday, not a new year.
It's an event.
big or small, something that changes us.
Ideally it gives us hope.
A new way of living and looking at the world.
Letting go of old habits, old memories.
Whats important, is that we never should stop believing we can have a new beginning.
but its also important to remember that amid all the crap, there are a few things really worth holding on too.

♥

Honestly, I really don't know what to do with myself anymore. In about 8 months I'll be on my own. I always wanted to leave home and run away before, but now that I'm older- and it's time for me to leave; I realize that I'm really not ready to be on my own. I'm never going to be able to pay for college and rent. I'll probably never be able to leave home, which will be awful. So I'll be stuck in this mad house forever?

Today me and my best freind were taking the train home, (lately we've been talking about our future) it came down to the same conversation we usually have, what's going to happen when we're in college. I'm pretty sure she'll get into a really good college, maybe even a ivy league, but me- i might not even get into any college. I'm not even sure what I want to do in the future!

So she tried figuring out what I was good at, and you know what that was? NOTHING! I'm good at nothing at all. My best freind couldn't even figure out what I'm good at, and that's just sad. I'm a pathetic looser wasting space on earth.

I don't get it.
I don't understand why everyone now-a-days is so dishonest.
Really, if people would just outright say what they feel, it would make alot of lives a hell of alot easier.
There isn't anything to be ashamed of.
Gather your balls and spit it out.
Just say what you want, fuck.
It's just going to make someones life, be it whoever, a hell of a lot easier. Sure, you might disappoint someone, but really, WHO CARES.

Theres a fine line between being rude, or mean; and being honest.
Sure, if you think someones ugly as a fucking horses ass, you "honestly" want to tell them, but don't. bite your tongue, save that person their little share of self- esteem they have left.

If someone tells you a secret that should be kept, keep it. Even if you truly hate the person, save them their dignity. Thats called trust, and disrespecting someones trust, even if you hate them, makes you untrustworthy. Definitely not a trait you want on your back.

Really, some people in this world need so smarten up, it pisses me off so much how awful people can be. Don't open your mouth till you honestly know what the situation is. People all have feelings. Just because you don't understand them, doesn't make them not there. No matter how hard they try and hold back the tears, or try and act like they have a tough skin, it honestly hurts. Its not a surprise so many teens are killing themselves these days. Or are depressed out of their minds and turn to drugs, or razer blades to stop them from feeling. They're tortured till they just cant take it anymore, kids are so freaking rude and ignorant, and it really needs to stop.

People should try and be good people because they want to be good people. They shouldn't do or say things because their friends are around and everyones making fun of the little fat kid in the corner, the kid who's ears stick out, the kid who cant say his "R"'s correctly, the one who's a bit different then everybody else. Just because all your little friends laugh, doesn't make it right, and certainly doesn't make you a better person. You're wrecking someone from the inside out. Driving them to slow insanity, the kind that cant be fixed, because they cant get away, the kind that cant be fixed by a hug and a little talking.

no, I'm not perfect, and yes, I've done some of these things, but really. we all need to stop and think about what we're about to say, who we're about to tell, or not saying what you want to say.

Some people need a swift kick in the ass.

life is about choices. choices that make you who you are. Choose who you want to be.

-If this offended you and any way- I am truly sorry-

Ever had those times when nothing makes sense? Life seems like a hopeless long road. And you just feel like giving up?
Well thats how I feel right now. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I feel like giving up, but if I do give up, I know I will regret it when I'm older. My grades in school are awful, I have no talent and I just suck as a person.
My dreams are falling apart and I don't feel as if I can accomplish anything.
I know life isn't supposed to be this easy, but I didn't know it was going to be this hard.
I feel so lost, it's like I don't have a purpose anymore. I don't like doing the things I used to like. I feel like I don't even exist anymore.
I really don't know what to do anymore, life has no meaning.